I come to you, put my life in your hands you put my life on the line, But it's OK, yeah we gone ride, we got be just fine Don't know why I'm here, I Don't know why I'm sitting, here in this chair, I'm hearing judgement pass, thru your pen to the pad you taking notes, scribbling every work I had said, Like somethings wrong with me I ain't the one, I'm doing just fine, I ain't got da gun, I ain't go get da torch, I'm doing just fine, I ain't recklessly jumping up off da porch, I ain't bitchin bout life unfair, I'm fine I'm coexisting with my despair, my mind is fine, thoughts clear as da sky, my equilibrium at an all time high, man this shit for da birds, this shit for them niggas with manifestos ain't getting no skirt, users of medication just to regularly fit, or personalities resemble bowling pin split, I'm only here because of her suggestion, I said I'm fine, but she keep contesting, claim she see flaws stemming from me, I laughed, bitch I think yo eyesight funny, constantly lobbing out allegations, suppressed trauma monkey wrenching relations, see me and her been going thru it, age 7 a man's life, I saw him lose it, I'm fine surrounded by drug runners and prostitution, no father present but rose color hid disillusion, I'm fine, uhumm, give me a min, my eyes Startin to waterin think I got something in it, I'm fine in fact I'm better than that, daddy kept on leaving she kept letting'em back, I'm fine, her worst fear cloning his interactions, so always ridiculed like she ain't notice my passion, I'm fine he chose to put family below addiction, and now I'm next in line for that affliction, near only child condition, extrovertion and love for bitches, this how I cry out for attentions, I'm fine Fuuuucccckkk! Fuck a diagnosis, and fuck them pills, be a fucking man nigga and learn to deal, fuck how you feel bout it, fuck when you told and they still doubted, fuck just kill bout it, fuck if it felony, fuck all they clipboards, judgemental big words, for niggas ain't good for us, Fuck Therapy

I'm back in this bitch been sick of this shit so arrived with da medicine, Tho heavy the head of the crown I'll never get tired of wearing it, I'm off in your lane with no signaling I'm changing the narrative, disfigure ya neck when I step on it bet it ain't no mo comparison, Ahead of the class I just did the math my reign is imperative A house a hill wit stacked dollar bills successful American Might fuck up da game I fucked on his dame and still made her marry him, your favorite great they head on a plate we burned 'em no burying my ego my ego my ego my place on da throne, my ego my ego my ego in aerospace all to its own, my ego my ego my ego thanks you for keeping it warm my ego my ego my ego my ego my ego I'm beating my chest while claiming da best I know it's fairytale, just tryna impress cause lack of respect, I think I know very well, I gloat and boast and I smile all da while I really be feeling ill, I front I fake I act my ass off and hope they can never tell i play hide and seek and hope dat I creep right by insecurities, Cant show them im weak remove da mystique I lack dat maturity, when really I'm scared I'm under prepared and filled with impurities, show my cards or fold I feel so exposed this whole thing is new to me my ego my ego my ego my ego is really a front my ego my ego my ego will tell you whatever you want my ego my ego my ego my ego supposed to secure me from pain my ego my ego my ego my ego is really just sheltering shame while I'm claiming da man, yall look at me different no fortune or fame, you don't my name, do you know my lyrics I'm asking a afraid, they won't tell the truth, instead they'll be sparing me even those closest you won't give it a chance unless cosign is carrying and I'm knowing da ropes using my ego to cope im tryna escape da comparisons, slippery slope self appointed da goat when trying to increase my advantages, avoiding da choke when really its murder she wrote, don't really think I can handle it, anxiety cloaked behind da smoke and ego been covered in bandages

Yellow belly nigga but swear that I'm never scared, when things get outta pocket my hands gone hide head oh my gay azz nigga, punk azz nigga, light skinned, barely pass for black azz nigga, soft azz nigga, lost azz nigga, yeah you might be one, but you ain't that nigga, lazy azz nigga, crazy azz nigga, yeah you yo daddy son reflection azz nigga, broke azz nigga, joke azz nigga, funny money pockets Chevy Chase azz nigga, Yeah I dun heard all hit *69, bet every word recall, no lie Too much going thru head, I need to get away or yall might find out I am, don't try, this ain't personal at all but a nigga need his space so just answer when I call, yellow belly nigga but swear that I'm never scared, when things get outta pocket my hands gone hide head oh my I just need to be left alone, sometimes I gotta work this shit out on my own, don't take it personal when I say leave alone, I'm just a yellow belly nigga but I swear I'm never scared, when things get outta pocket my then my hands gone hide head Ain't shit nigga, Cheating azz nigga, no good ain't never gone be faithful azz nigga, wounded azz nigga, ruined azz nigga, think you so smart really stupid azz nigga, Square azz nigga, Child azz nigga, don't talk about my clothes you no style azz nigga, hoe azz nigga, bitch azz nigga, you ain't running shit but yo lips azz nigga, Yeah I dun heard all hit *69, bet every word recall, no lie Too much going thru head, I need to get away or yall might find out I am, don't try, this ain't personal at all but a nigga need his space so just answer when I call, yellow belly nigga but swear that I'm never scared, when things get outta pocket my hands gone hide head oh my I just need to be left alone, sometimes I gotta work this shit out on my own, don't take it personal when I say leave alone, I'm just a yellow belly nigga but I swear I'm never scared, when things get outta pocket my then my hands gone hide head Swole azz nigga, bold azz nigga, acting like you young really old azz nigga, Fake azz nigga, cake azz nigga, talking bout yo feelings ol Drake azz nigga, Hating azz nigga, Satan azz nigga, always gum bumping ol debating azz nigga, Never azz nigga, ever azz nigga, gonna be shit ol nothing azz nigga Yeah I dun heard all hit *69, bet every word recall, no lie Too much going thru head, I need to get away or yall might find out I am, don't try, this ain't personal at all but a nigga need his space so just answer when I call, yellow belly nigga but swear that I'm never scared, when things get outta pocket my hands gone hide head oh my I just need to be left alone, sometimes I gotta work this shit out on my own, don't take it personal when I say leave alone, I'm just a yellow belly nigga but I swear I'm never scared, when things get outta pocket my then my hands gone hide head

Don't shit fuck with me, I'm too cold Ain't shit fuck with me Coming from a city where dem boys pitch rocks and da cops don't come pray avoid those shots or your corpse be cold yes da block be hot, looking out da window suggest you not, Still shit don't fuck with me, I'm too cold, So cold so cold so cold, Bus stop early in morning, Bust shots family in mourning, Bucks shots kicking ya door in, Shots go from raining to pouring, Slugs hot as papa bear porridge, soon as I step out da door it's, red stains and rigor mortis, just keep looking forward ignore it, I don't see shit I don't say shit I ain't heard a damn thang, just keep it moving, suppressed confusion, I ain't feeling no way, should be shaking, should be crying, water falling from eyes, should be calling my momma, instead I'm desensitized, Don't shit fuck with me, I'm too (gun shots) Ain't shit fuck with me Coming from a city where dem boys pitch rocks and da cops don't come pray avoid those shots or your corpse be cold yes da block be hot, looking out da window suggest you not, I dun seen a nigga get clapped, head split open like a Venus fly trap, scared as a bitch tryna hold my cry back, 30yr soak still ain't cleansed dat blood bath, 7 yrs old I ain't even tell my momma, I just dug holes tryna bury that trauma, wetting my bed nervous bladder pajamas, (shut up nigga) But I gotta tell someone (I said shit up nigga) but I gotta say something (shut up!) ok I pushed it down in myself, built up the walls protecting my health, relied on self ain't ask for no help, memory strong but feelings I left, like I ain't need no one, tickled myself until my feelings numbed, never thought about, just how deep it runs, Don't shit fuck with me, I'm too cold Ain't shit fuck with me Coming from a city where dem boys pitch rocks and da cops don't come pray avoid those shots or your corpse be cold yes da block be hot, looking out da window suggest you not, Still shit don't fuck with me, I'm too cold, So cold so cold so cold, Bus stop early in morning, Bust shots family in mourning, Bucks shots kicking ya door in, Shots go from raining to pouring, Slugs hot as papa bear porridge, soon as I step out da door it's, red stains and rigor mortis, just keep looking forward ignore it, *(Ron B. verse) Don't shit fuck with me, I'm too (gun shots) Ain't shit fuck with me Coming from a city where dem boys pitch rocks and da cops don't come pray avoid those shots or your corpse be cold yes da block be hot, looking out da window suggest you not, So cold so cold so cold, They never do believe whenever I tell'em seen, a nigga lose his life right fo' my very eyes my spirit been filled with ice, true feelings buried inside never present they hide, no wonder I never cried, so numb had crossed my mind, maybe a suicide, be Mike that brew inside, no wonder my favorite line is, Fuck it

Cold hearted, my head harder than most like froze water, seen a man turn to ghost, just mo trauma, that was 7 yrs old, ain't no problem, doors closed on those coffins suppose I'll grow awkward, but I didn't, mind playing tricks Houdini is in position, my mental disposition is distorted da block was going Apeshit to word to Bobby Porter and I wonder How it's affecting me now, no emotions allowed, not a tear or a frown, now kindly smile for a clown, same time we had got kicked out da house, daddy stole da rent money bankhead bounced on an ounce, while my momma cut da rug and swag surfed on da couch this was introduction to da suction of seduction and indulgence in its functions why I'm fucked up right now, My life my life my life my life Looking fucked right now fuck is up right now DJ this my song up right now whoa My life my life my life my life Grab a cup right now full it up right now Red solo turn it upside down whoa Drug dealers and chop shops, in bright colored houses, that's how you knew that the Haitians had copped, next door neighbor had first influenced my thoughts, a couple folded dollars he'd give you access to daughters, his oldest look like model heard suck you like baby bottle, seen it all my life so that purchase is not a problem, I even started pimpin on the avenue, night walkers on da low track, I had a few, no backhands just deductions if a hoe hop wit an attitude, 13 first jumped between, a pair legs like they were a fighting on Jerry Spring, and I been fighting it ever since, the urge to seek new waters to comfort my sunken ship My life my life my life my life Looking fucked right now fuck is up right now DJ this my song up right now whoa My life my life my life my life Grab a cup right now full it up right now Red solo turn it upside down whoa independent spirit got me feeling different, like asking out for help resemble weak position, no wonder why my disposition feeling distant, and why I really don't say shit I doubt they'd listen, Trust issues, on trust issues, how was you posed to learn when ain't nobody trusted you, Social worker wit disgusted views, you seen it all But paranoia won't let you see beyond that wall so from you this shit evolved, so now I don't trust to even get you involved, this was introduction to da suction of seduction and indulgence in its functions why I'm fucked up right now, My life my life my life my life Looking fucked right now fuck is up right now DJ this my song up right now whoaa My life my life my life my life Grab a cup right now full it up right now Red solo turn it upside down whoa

It's time you pay homage head to the holy father, gettin head in da bed as toes curl like hairs of slaughtered, ancestry incest we be as she call me Da da, Headshot from pistol, grab tissue, clean daddy issues, He'd rather get high with mutuals, my feelings was rather neutral while Momma make shit look usual, she stressing scared this my future so now on guard, on god, how was he 'posed to know I'd be riddled with impulsive activity, that I walk in his shoes, when he wasn't round to give'em me, habits is uncontrolled, life lived on edge, (Now come indulge lil nigga, that shit's all in ya head) These is just da cards thats being handed when the dealer is tryna test, And I'm failing every moment when too obsessed with da flesh still in his shadow when the light shine, hiding deeds in the night time, acting like I'm better but still in need of a life line, They keep telling me how I'm acting's reflecting his actions how i be acting like I ain't actively acting like every one of my actions ain't actually actuating desires that's activating Aladdin and wishful thinking is habit no longer want Gotta have it, I mean I, I fuckin need it, I know I got a problem, Its you how can it be you left, still part of me and I can shake da shit or break da shit, impulse is in my genes, I lose control, I lose control, I'm fighting therapy, While you was chasing for dat buzz, we ain't know where you was, just a vice driven creature, but now I favor your features, lusting over white girl ,had you fleeing da home, my lust love all colors, I can't leave'em alone can't shake my impulses for nothing it seems, I get it from my genes, I'm still close to the tree like fallen apple, a fallen angel they clipped my wings they saw disaster, impulsive nature, I get from you, get from you when you wasn't there, my inheritance came early I been aware, same time that you was itching for a hit, I was hittin' bitches who was tryna scratch an itch deviant and insatiable, wanna be faithful is it attainable, is it sustainable, I hope one day relieve me of this stain, lift it off my soul and cause its burden harbors pain, Pops said that he can feel it running thru the da veins, Run into the clouds and may it wash away with rain keep on raining make da sun come out betta keep on keep on alright Betta keep on, ok alright, watch'em leaving, drown'em all bye bye, While you was chasing for dat buzz, we ain't know where you was, just a vice driven creature, but now I favor your features, lusting over white girl ,had you fleeing da home, my lust love all colors, I can't leave'em alone can't shake my impulses for nothing it seems, I get it from my genes,

I got a bitch that'll suck on my dick from top of da morning til failing asleep, begging for action she damn near harassing a pussy assassin closed casket in need, socks on for traction she gripping Im grabbing and slapping and smacking my name on dem cheeks, passion on passion on passion on passion a freak in da bed in da streets she discreet, fairytale fairytale fairytale fairytale I know you very well, passion had turned into poison and now there be poison in every well, First it's you love me then hate me then love me then hate some mo, free sample of food a ride or a fool which one of these things is you taking me fo', I don't know what this is, what kinda shit that you on, love birds turn to cuss words, backshots when righting that wrong, Passion turns into poison, toxic down to da bone, actions playing on repeat, like dis be our favorite song bitch in my phone, fuck is you all in my phone for, ain't paid not one bill, cash or credit but checking a No No, bitch I be paying bills, you way too comfortable mouf steady running like athlete, steadily asking me, about these hoes hoping one day that you catching me, but what happen after we, turning da table then all da sudden its apathy, your flaws are actually, just a reaction to agony, always come back on me, accountability finding you dodging it casually, but then you taking them shots at my character I'm barely avoiding a casualty, help you to get where you going but we ain't acknowledging that, say you ain't using me but I'm refusing to take it as fact, cause when you made come up then colors start showing we see how you act, i know it's a shame that ain't a thang this love is da drug keep pulling us back I don't know what this is, what kinda shit that you on, love birds turn to cuss words, backshots when righting that wrong, Passion turns into poison, toxic down to da bone, actions playing on repeat, like dis be our favorite song Yeah I fucked up when I stepped out in these streets, You fucked up when stepped in them on me, tit for tat doing all that love filled wit toxicity, make up then claim clean slate, just da same song on repeat, why is you running mouf, knowing I'm running house, in da streets running round,

Grew up with this nigga from around the way, (around da way) right about a block from where my mama stay, (my mama stay) we used to cut da fool we used to cut da fool (we cut da fool) Summertime my mama working summer school (dat summer school) When she dip he Slid by crib we play da game, (we play da game) When he leave shit disappear like David Blain (dat magic mane dat magic mane) so crept into his house right thru da window pane, Roto Rooter in dis bitch cleaned out everything Hook: Don't feel da same Don't feel da same that shit don't feel da same Don't feel da same Don't feel da same that shit don't feel da same, Don't feel da same Don't feel da same that shit don't feel da same, I used to rock with you but that shit just don't feeling the same (x2) Too big for ya britches bet ya smell ya stank, (you smell yourself) Thought that we was cool found out we really ain't, (we ain't dat cool) got a lil fame you got a lil fame, (you gaining fame) booty smoochers got you swelling in da brain, (you big head mane) first to cast a stone then try to hide yo hand, (you ain't no man) see you and yo lip be tight as biker as pants, (don't say a thang) Wanna fan da flame but imma keep it cool (keep it cool) but until you right dat wrong I don't fuck with you Hook: Don't feel da same Don't feel da same that shit don't feel da same Don't feel da same Don't feel da same that shit don't feel da same, Don't feel da same Don't feel da same that shit don't feel da same, I used to rock with you but that shit just don't feeling the same (x2) Hit my line and I'd ride witcha, when we was cool you was my nigga, double crossed like devout Christian, so I dug ya bitch out probably my children, tried to help you out but you advantage took, (advantage took) house of cards was solid til that table shook, (dat take shook) bookmark on that chapter had to close da book, (i closed dat book) that's why went and fucked yo bitch I'm a pussy crook,

Out my fuckin head out my fuckin mind, out my fuckin bed out of fuckin time, out of body rhyme, outer body fine outer circle lying, out of fuckin line, out of fuckin noise, out of words I mime, out da fuckin door, I get in da car I get in da streets I get in a fight, I get in da stu, I get give out da beats, now he on retreat, made a nigga bleed, get back in da car, hit a couple bars, get a couple broads, now it's 2 a.m. and I don't where I is, and I been all on dat drank, tryna get back to da crib, put da addy in the Navi, like I don't know where I live, when I get back set alarm, then gone do it all again I'm going

Life is a group of repetitive melodies, Life is a group of repetitive melodies telling me everything, Life is a group of repetitive melodies telling on everyone singing bout what we had done, how we move under sun, regrets and references run, throughout my sentiments through all these sentences rather unsettling, patterns persistent intentions were different but that's now irrelevant, now there's hurt feelings ain't no mo appealing your judgement evident, spinning this record I reckoned our regimen insanity as we repeat on repeat on repeat on repeat how many times round fo' this circle complete, how many more cycles before we release, find our relations deceased, chaos forever or peace, get it together or cease, love or just toxicity, More pleasure than pain but when painful maintaining where is there relief either dwell or ignore it forget or explore it happy or right which would rather I'd be, In love with da of sounds singing, da lyrics, da sweet melodies The Playlist is bumping, I ain't changing nothing, a skip feature function is ever a need Life is a group of repetitive melodies, Life is a group of repetitive melodies telling me everything, Life is a group of repetitive melodies telling to everyone singing bout what I had done, how I move under sun, regrets and references run, throughout my memories hard to contend with what's seen these images, spend so much money to look like the man but I'm really pretending it, a fake and fraud deceiving you all though never intended it, spinning this record I reckoned my regimen insanity as I repeat on repeat on repeat on repeat how many times round fo' this circle complete, how many more cycles before my relief, live to impress and in need, this front ain't quite what it seems, get it together or cease, head above water at least The pleasure and shame but when shameful maintaining why can't I release either dwell or ignore it forget or explore it happy or right which would rather I'd be, In love with da of sounds singing, da lyrics, da sweet melodies The Playlist is bumping, I ain't changing nothing, a skip feature function is ever a need Sound off like victory trumpet my confession pure dysfunction break away from temptations like David Ruffin then I'm right back on stage tryna beg for comfort I ain't good for nothing i ain't worth a penny spend a dollar keep the record spinning, keep revolving ain't no problem solving yeah I got a problem but I can't admit it Riding round 285 keep on listening, Round and round the record I don't the start from end

I got problems, what dat mean I got pain, what you saying I got pressure, I got pressure, I got pressure Why you playing I got pressure, yeah where from I got pain, that ain't nuthin I got problems, I got problems l, I got problems Then name me one I got fear, I got angst, I got shame (I got) no control, I'm obsessed, can't refrain (I got) pressure mounting, I can't take it, feel insane (I got) Pain that's hiding, so I'm dancing, in da rain ( I got) debts accruing, feds pursuing, wants and needs (I got) regretful nature, whenever urges, supercede ( I got) pride and ego, good and evil, got all of these (I got) I got pressure, I got pressure, I can't breathe and it feel like da world coming down, circle back and they still be around, thoughts flood I maneuver da crown, above water avoiding da drown, just hit da back stroke, or grab on dat rope and ya feet touch da ground when camel's back broke, it's Michael Jack grope in going nuts on'em now, Light dat pressure pressure pressure pressure pressure blow it, Feel dat pressure pressure pressure pressure pressure growing, All dat pressure pressure pressure pressure damn near foot me bowing, Tell dat pressure pressure pressure pressure I ain't going I got problems, what dat mean I got pain, what you saying I got pressure, I got pressure, I got pressure Why you playing I got pressure, yeah where from I got pain, that ain't nuthin I got problems, I got problems l, I got problems Then name me one I got fear, I got angst, I got shame (I got) Daddy issues, Mama trauma, all the same (I got) lack of purpose, feeling worthless, gutter brain (I got) bad habits, da bunny rabbit, I can't contain ( I got) bills on bills, I'm missing meals, and sowing seeds (I got) nothing going, nothing showing, for foolish deeds ( I got) pride and ego, good and evil, got all of these (I got) I got pressure, I got pressure, I can't breathe and it feel like da world coming down, circle back and they still be around, thoughts flood I maneuver da crown, above water avoiding da drown, just hit da back stroke, or grab on dat rope and ya feet touch da ground when camel's back broke, it's Michael Jack grope in going nuts on'em now,

Should I, slide cross the wrist or poke my head thru da rope, Should I, swallow these pills, or maybe police provoke, Maybe inside this bottle find my body afloat, or rather, jump like a tear out da window of soul, Tears behind these teeth I should be crying, I fell in well so deep I should be dying, lord knows I tried it, Best don't believe this smile that shit be lying See this smile on face, that shit's a lie, I once ran a blade cross my skin don't ask me why I won't tell you, piles of clothes litter my room, empty food trays condom wrappers pussy consumed, slim margins for pennies pinched, pinching on myself real life this can't be it, Often homies tend to resent, cause when they on they come up I can't come up shit, blade ran deeper into my wrist, the ash from the scratch turn to blood if I persist, that's a big if with emphasis, my only cure for stress is thrash chick until content Down on my luck down in my spirit downing spirits in liquor cups so I don't fear it, head stone calendar date, took a bite out of life in about to clear my plate, deep in-to abyss dropped, off da deep end, I had tripped off, mental flimsy, like flip flop, that I kick off, when I bare all, see my bare soul, see these 10 toes, make'em point to da sky, but will my soul still float, if I cause it to fly, this smile lie, my teeth like cell doors to my feelings, trapped inside depression made my death more appealing, but all you see good times and smiles from my face, friendly with open arms but closed casket I chase probably guilt, I nearly killed man, bare hands, the second time stabs from knife, off metropolitan, don't think his status alive, but i had to survive, funny now in this grave yearn to dive, big face smiling but counterfeit, Mutombo blocking my urges with common sense, can't follow thru shot lack confidence, so I guess I'll stick around until my ending commence,

(Top gone favorite song on replay) I ain't in control, I don't fit da mold out in da streets, I ain't industry, it ain't meant for me, fuck yo sympathy, don't mean shit to me, only empathy, life keeps tempting, be if meant to be, my anxiety, Top gone favorite song on replay, past sins still paying for 'em on layaway, men do what they want, boys do what they can, swerve off in yo lane nigga you won't even much stand a views thru my windows, my heart rate crescendo always, hoes fill my ego, my head filled with pain, mind race on treadmills I can't get away, can't get away, can't get away, I ain't in control, I don't fit da mold out in da streets, I ain't industry, it ain't meant for me, fuck yo sympathy, don't mean shit to me, only empathy, life keeps tempting, be if meant to be, my anxiety, views thru my windows, my heart rate crescendo always, hoes fill my ego, my head filled with pain, mind race on treadmills I can't get away, can't get away, can't get away, Top gone favorite song on replay, past sins still paying for 'em on layaway, men do what they want, boys do what they can, swerve off in yo lane nigga you won't even much stand a chance Bet i crawl in this bitch, fake stand tall in this bitch cry might ball in this bitch, might feel small in this bitch, all that talkin and shit, put my all in this shit, Til I fall in dat crypt, Blood on all of this shit, I might cry in this bitch, California to Florida, paralyzed paranoia, Heart racing, Breathe Shorten meditation recoding Bullshit for da Bullshit, prayer prescription from da pulpit, helpless hopeless and all dat, just a Penny with a hole in it, I ain't in control, I don't fit da mold out in da streets, I ain't industry, it ain't meant for me, fuck yo sympathy, don't mean shit to me, only empathy, life keeps tempting, be if meant to be, my anxiety, Top gone favorite song on replay, men do what they want, boys do what they can, swerve off in yo lane nigga you won't even much stand a chance

Oh why, oh why, oh why, oh why, I right my wrongs or wrongs be life, in this world of pain and sacrifice i realized, it's my, (my fault) it's my, (my fault) I think that I'm ready I know that I'm ready I feel like I'm ready I feel and I think that I know, It's time that I get it's time that I did it it's time that I live it and push pass my limit that's fasho, I think that I'm ready I know that I'm ready I feel like I'm ready I feel and I think that I know, It's time that I get it's time that I did it it's time that I live it and push pass my limits accountability is a fairytale if there's a heaven G who ain't living well, is this all a dream, or is it all a scheme, simulation seems but can never tell, too many emotions, too many endorphins, now fuck dem precautions, just get an abortion, or go thru motions, to make it an orphan, why raise it poor when, could chop in portions, so life lived to the fullest, da one in da matrix got good at dodging the bullets, but what if I the bullet was dodged, and trigger of that gun my Ma decide to pull it, surviving da poverty, traversing they policies, avoiding da politics, absorbing they knowledge and, repairing my qualities, don't fuck with dat red bull, cause bull shit be following, and probably (*Ado Joestar Verse) Oh why, oh why, oh why, oh why, I right my wrongs or wrongs be life, in this world of pain and sacrifice i realized, it's my, (my fault) it's my, (my fault) find out bout them women on da side, finally has enough time to pack her things and ride, it's my fault when I let my pride move my tongue, I say some foolish shit forever break a bond, it's my fault when for you I go out on a limb, knew you wasn't worthy but that help I still extend, and it's my fault when I stuff my feelings in safe, finally open up and have it blow up in my face Oh why, oh why, oh why, oh why, I right my wrongs or wrongs be life, in this world of pain and sacrifice i realized, it's my, (my fault) it's my, (my fault) I think that I'm ready I know that I'm ready I feel like I'm ready I feel and I think that I know, It's time that I get it's time that I did it it's time that I live it and push pass my limit that's fasho, I think that I'm ready I know that I'm ready I feel like I'm ready I feel and I think that I know, It's time that I get it's time that I did it it's time that I live it and push pass my limits

Middle Georgia backwoods, March 5, way before white man and black would, make good, call truce, where the turf war wasn't tied to da red and da blue, affiliated since birth, so its auto ride or die on da noose, but god's work gonna stay working, and look what produced, baby girl enters into world brown skin fresh as fruit, Mattie Mae, #2 of 8 , from a humble beginnings first one to throw caps offs from family in college buildings, and that was just da beginning, got married time for some chillins, first born to da first love, my ain't times moving different, changes as time persisted, the sands of time caused a sandstorm, wrapped up in a whirlwind no forecast could've planned for, he done caught up in da streets, she done got fed up bout to fed up bout to leave, I'm taking our son in leaving these papers, I'm leaving da house in seeing you later, later as time would pass, she's moving on, tryna clear da path, to da state of sun, leave da rain in past, leave da pain in, she screaming free at last, but it ain't last, before too long she had met a man, fair skinned with that red hair, hazel eyes shouldn't dare stare, but it's too late devil laid snare, and she stepped in it, introduce by her next sibling, talk about family ties, meanwhile got her intertwined with lies, hit da Kingdom Hall tryna seek da truth, said that he was with it so she bit da fruit, jumped da broom, knocked da boot, seed produced, not much later would he chuck da deuce, dueces Still stayed strong held it down like dat, gone hit da corner then gone come right back, ten toes down hard find like that, in and out, in and out, nurse 'em up vice- alert he's going down, ain't no telling where he's going now, ain't no telling when he's coming back, she said bump that imma put fam on back, with no back up, I'll get us back on track, da track record, is immaculate, then just like dat, car crash put her flat on back, and guess who's back, he told her come move to Georgia, that he been clean, been making cheese and finally can afford a four door car, and a place to live, so she packed it up this was for da kid, 6 months it was all here, 1 day coming home late turned into bout 6yrs, I see your work, I see your patience, I see your worth, If it wasn't for you I wouldn't be me I see your purpose, I see your work , You laid that down for me and it's gone work I see your purpose

God gave him a chance, first he opened da door, then he opened his hands, then he opened his eyes, and da problems began yeah da problems began, yeah da problems began Only 7yrs old, seen a bullet with wings, fly a nigga's soul down deep into a coffin its seems, he ain't never recover, in da hall of Jehovah, he was bowing his head, and hoping dem angels hold 'em, one day while he played in front of his yard, dope boy on the avenue jumped in black Chevy parked, in da very driveway he seen a life that fell apart, revving up da engine and somehow by grace of God, hanging out da window missed every shot that he sparked, God gave him a chance, first he opened da door, then he opened his hands, then he opened his eyes, and da problems began yeah da problems began, yeah da problems began Just a troubled lil nigga, turned to troubled young man, finally growed up then right back in trouble again, thought he had sowed up this trauma that's cycling, attraction to harlots dats popping pussy like Vicodin, willing to risk it all cause void live inside of him, behavior of deviance cause nothing excited him, if he could get 24 bitches inside of 24 hours they'd probably call him da man the attention he would devour no doubt, lacking accomplishments, blaming his mama for never giving him compliments, his showy bravado was really shallow in confidence, always Carpe diem until you facing the consequence, But God gave him a chance, first he opened da door, then he opened his hands, eyes opened but he ain't seeing da consequence, so whenever problems begin assured they ain't never gone end, they ain't never gone end, He afraid, rather remain a slave, I'm just being me, is da mantra he sang, avoid being vulnerable, just endure da pain, scared who'd he become after making da change, see freedom ain't easy even hard to maintain that's why he bow down to massa and learned to deal with da shame, rather make excuses than just to simply refrain, he don't challenge da norm never breaking da chain They always told me never go down that path, it'll make your link weak and your chain never last, every person that Ive known that done been thru therapy, is still fucked up, I think it's clear to see, ain't no comparing me, I can do bad on my own apparently, if come to needing some help, I guess I'll be helping myself